Let me tell you first a important thing... You are compeletely fine. Its not you its the world you are living. So you are feeling something strange, the world around you are not the same as they were in the past ? it seems there is missing something , you can sense it but exactly you can't figure out. People with whom you have enjoyed so much are no longer there. Even family members are seems not to be understanding your situation. You realized You have a lot of people around but all are just your well wishers but no body is truely your friend they show up only when there is a need else they disappear like dinosaurs. You feel all alone no one is there to share anything. You turn towards another people for emotional comfort they too left you alone. It seems you does not belongs to this world and you are not compatible. What you are doing now for happiness ? Scrolling...scrolling. Stop!. You know what you are missing here? You care too much. Remember its not a curse it is a gift, not many people have it.The world has turned into a colony of greedy and show off freaks. You watch happy and perfectly curated post. Those people are most hollow. They are trying to fill a void which they can not. And You are making yourself sad for not having that.
I can yapp all day long about these non-sense but life is too short to live, why waste on the people like those. You my Darling look at Yourself ... What you have became ? Trying to care about those freaks and so called friends who never cared about you. Life is unfair I know but Life is beautiful because What You need to survive is already in You. You are searching at wrong places.'You do not need others to be happy' thats feature of life , not a bug. Get out from the internet for few weeks and see yourself. Initially it will suck biggg time but take it slowly...You will be okay.
I know its not a joke but Hey! I have been there too. I know how it feels. When you lose your precious years of life. So what I can provide ? If you are feeling lonely and neglected and want to share with someone without any judgement. Here I am for You. You can mail me. The mail is on my home page. You do not want to be known then use protonmail to create any random mail.
~Gufran Jameel